As she sat there in the deafening silence of the dark, she knew it was there . It was all still there and the darkness? It shone on all of what she was hiding. That’s what it does I guess . Darkness. We try so hard to confuse our mind into believing it is okay. We are okay. But then it is dark. And all the other distracting lights are off and this is all we have left. Loneliness. Grief. Sorrow. Whatever it is that plagues even the happiest of us. She tried so hard,  oh so hard to just stay away from this darkness. To always have something small or petty to worry about or obsess about so this wouldn’t get to her. It worked brilliantly too. She fooled everybody,  even herself for a while. But soon she ran out of things to obsess over and all she had left, was her and the cold, blinding darkness which by some irony made it easier for her to see. She would have given anything for a kind word or a small but sure hand of support. But now that she was finally in this darkness she saw it. She had been hiding from it for so long that she didn’t realize that the darkness? That was exactly what she needed. That loneliness in her heart? That was her failing to understand that she had everything she needed. She had herself and that was all that mattered.  So instead of treating that darkness as a shroud, she wore it, like a cape. She emerged out of the hurdles she had crafted for herself. She emerged alone,  but content.



Most of our life is a series of images. They pass by us like towns on the highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens. And we know that this instant is more than just a fleeting image.-One tree hill

Hey I’m Avantika Kulkarni, just an ordinary person, living an ordinary life. But it’s these ordinary lives and ordinary moments that make our life extraordinary. Our lives are made of millions of moments. Each moment as overwhelming as the next. And these moments make up a story. Every individual has their own story.However boring they may feel their lives are,every single organism to take birth in this world has some significance. And so many of our stories collide and intersect with others.We have an impact in every life surrounding us.However small that impact may be. Not all of these moments are happy,satisfying ones. A few are meant to bring us down. A few are meant to bring a smile on our face, years later. But one thing is definite, that every single momeblog3nt of our life is life changing. Everything we hear, see or say adds up to our story. So I wonder how many lives we change, and how many lives change us? It is like a picture taken in a public place, which includes people who were not intended to be in it,but are in it nevertheless.That just means that every person who enters and exits our life is there for some definite reason. It makes me happy to think that all the suffMomentsering we go through when something goes wrong in our life has some significance except for to make our lives miserable. It somehow makes the suffering a lot more bearable, knowing that something good might come of. All the times we fall,and rise up again teach us to keep going on,and that hope is all we have in this world. Every moment gives us the courage to wake up the next day and continue however tough it  may be. And what else could one ask for?

P.S-Hey I’m new to blogging..so please bear with it..Thanks 😀

Before I Fall 

When we see, on Facebook or so,that a book will be adapted into a movie, we rush to the bookstore. We rush to read the story, so we can be overwhelmed by the words, before the movie takes over our imagination.
One of the facts I absolutely adore about books, is that as we read, the book stops being a series of words.Instead it is like we have fallen into their world, and are watching it through a pensive ( Yay! Harry Potter reference) I love how the words mean something different to everyone. What everyone sees in their minds eye is different. Btw while we are at it, the fact that we ‘see’ without actually seeing, is one of the greatest phenomenon I know. Hey, look I’m off topic again! 

So, we all see characters differently, and when the movie comes out, we suddenly start seeing the actors instead. This makes me a little sad. Also, there is the obvious prospect that they might ruin the story which took over our hearts. 

Having said that,  the second I know that a book is being adapted, I run to pre-book the tickets. Because who’s going to miss that chance?


So getting to the actual point, the movie of the book ‘Before I Fall’ is set to hit the theatre, on March 3rd,2017. And it’s time, you pick up this lovely, heart-thrashing book.The concept of this book is so wildly mind blowing.  It gave a new outlook to my perception of death. I love hearing new theories of what happens after death. So this book was absolutely beautiful. 

Samantha ‘Sam’ Kingston, is a regular teenager, in high school. She is one of the ‘ Mean Girls’ or ‘The Plastics’ or whatever we are calling them this year. While she is in a car with her friends, there is an accident and she dies. 

You know ,  when the protagonist dies in the first few pages of the book, that this book is going to be a complete ride.

Sam wakes up the next morning, after her death, and it is the same day. The day she died. She soon realises she is reliving these day she had died. She is stuck in a circle. She has to get out of it. 
She lives the same day, again and again. She makes changes. She does things which surprise her family, friends and even herself. We see her slowly fall in love, with the boy she couldn’t care less about, in the beginning. 

All throughout the book, we know that the end is inevitable. We know there can’t be much of an outcome.  But we wait, and we hope. We hope Sam Kingston makes it out. And she does. 

To find out how she does, well, you’re going to have to give it a read. 

This book, makes us introspect our life, and our self. If we were to die, today, would we be satisfied? Satisfied with how we leave the world. Or would we want to live our life a different way. 

So look inside you.Look inside you and tell me.

Would you be satisfied having to live this day, as your very last? 

Mystery Blogger Award and One Lovely Blog Award


Okay, okay, okay, So this is exciting! I just got my first award nomination  WordPress( actually ever) Woot!Woot! Thank you so much!  thoughtsinlife. wordpress.com !! Go read this guys! Great blog! 

The rules: 

 Display Award Logo On BlogList

 The Rule Mention Creator Of Award & Provide A Link

Thank The Blogger(s) Who Nominated You & Provide A Link

Say 3 Things About Yourself

Nominate From 10 To 20 Bloggers

Notify Nominated Bloggers By Leaving A Comment On Their Blog

Answer 5 Questions From Nominee

Write 5 Questions For Your Nominees

Share Your Best Post
1.) The Creator Of The Award! 

3.) Three things about me: 

1.) Okay wow. Um. I’m talkative. That seems like a clichéd response. But really, I talk A lot. When you meet me that’s the first thing you’ll notice about me.

2.) Even though I’m talkative as you get to know me, I tend to be the person who thinks almost as much as I talk. I overthink and I think about philosophical, profound things all day.

3.) There’s a lot to know about me. I am a paradox and everything I say or do I might contradict depending on the situations. 

The Bloggers I’m nomination for this award are- 

The Wanderlust


Shehryar Khawar





4.] The questions from my Nominee! 
What is something you love about yourself and why?

I Love. That’s one thing I love about myself. I love so much, and so many, everyday. Even if I get not even a little bit of it back,  I give someone or something I love my all. 

Have you ever done something you know you shouldn’t have?

Yes. I have. There was a whole phase in my life, where I did all sorts of things I shouldn’t have done. 

What is your favourite movie this year so far?

Omg this year? I haven’t seen much at all. Been busy. But I guess Fantastic Beasts? it was the latest movie I’ve seen.  Also I plan on watching Lalaland and Beauty and the beast! 
If you could change your name would you and to what?

Um, this is like one of those things, like essay topics, when you are given so many many options you just can’t choose. I just tell someone to choose for me and stick to it. So um I’m guessing I’m gonna stick to my name. 

Have you ever been blindly in love?
Nope. No love. Food maybe. Oooh sleep also. 


1. What one thing would you like to change about yourself?  

2.) What would be the one thing you wouldn’t be able to live without 

3.) What is your biggest and greatest desire?

4.) What is your absolute favourite book/movie 

5.) What did you want to become as a child?  “When I grow up….” 

THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN FOR THIS NOMINATION! Thoughts In Life you totally made my day! 



I got Nominated for this award by thoughtsinlife.wordpress.com ! Thanksss! 

The Rules Are:

1. Thank the person who nominated you & provide a link to their blog.√

2. Post about the award.√

3. Share 7 facts about yourself.√

4. Nominate bloggers√

5. Tell your readers good news!

Omg 7 facts about me !  Here goes 

1.) I’m funny. I love making people laugh. It just makes me so happy when they just light up. 

2.) I’m loud. Most people tell me to shushh. Teachers put cello tape on my mouth. 

3.) I’m fat. And I’m okay with it. It is a huge part of who I am today. 

4.) I overthink anything and everything. 

5.) I am The Queen of Procrastination.

6.) I’m an insecure person. My self esteem isn’t great at all and I doubt myself a lot.

7.) I try my very very very best to be a decent person to people around me. One word can make or ruin ones day. 



Will Grayson ×2 

Okay that’s just me trying to be funny XD. The book I’m talking about is Will Grayson Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan. 
Okay,so the last two books I reviewed have been so emotionally draining (but completely amazing) , so I feel you deserve a lil bit of a happy ending. 

Two brilliant writers John Green and David Levithan have come together to give us this,gift of a book. Both of them write beautifully and give us two completely different stories intertwining with each other. 

The basic gist of the book: There are two guys, named Will Grayson both living their own separate lives. One Will Grayson ( friends with Tiny Cooper) lives by two simple rules:1) Don’t care too much, 2) Shut up. Once he gets rid of those rules, he is a very interesting character. We also get a really cute couple out of this❤ The second Will Grayson is one of the darkest characters I’ve read. It is a brilliant view of an unusual mind. the fact that he doesn’t use any caps in this is part of the book, is amazing. He has a hard life and the one thing he thinks he has turns out to be a massive prank. Heartbroken about this, he runs into the ‘other will grayson’ who is there for a concert he couldn’t get into. This intertwines the two stories. Tiny Cooper and Will Grayson( the other one) fall in love. ( Okay I’m sure I’ve confused you about which Will Grayson is which Will Grayson…I guess you’ll just have to read to figure it out) 

This book gives us, the beautiful character of Tiny Cooper. His introduction goes like : ” Tiny Cooper is not the world’s gayest person, and he is not the world’s largest person,but I believe he may be the world’s largest person who is really,really gay, and also the world’s gayest person who is really,really large.” 
Having said this, I am absolutely sure you are going to have a great time getting to know these characters. As always with John Green he makes us fall in love with his characters and David Levithan You’re not too far behind! If you have ever read a book by either of them you will easily figure out who’s written which character.  

Also if you like this one, Go check out: Hold Me Closer: The Tiny Cooper story

Rating: I give this book 2/2 Will Graysons ( didya see what I did there😉) 


All The Bright Places

“The world breakers everyone, and afterward,many are strong at the broken places”~Ernest Hemingway 
Soo if you’ve liked Playlist for the Dead, this is like upgrading the pain. Like it hurts. So,so much. Like really. Hurt. Like trying not be clichéd here but it’s like Jennifer Niven  put a smoldering hot rod into my heart and just like pulled it out. Writers must have a drawer full of dehydrated hearts. Okay that’s just gruesome.

Okay so the book. It’s the story of a girl who learns to live from a boy who wants to die. It is one of the most brilliant representations of a depressed , suicidal mind. The two characters Violet and Finch, meet in the most unlikely fashion. While trying to jump off a ledge in their school. They both save each other. First literally and then metaphorically. As the book moves along, you put your hopes in the two characters. Despite being known as the “freak” Finch is a capturing character and personally I was mesmerised in only a few pages. 

The book is no sunshine and ponies. And I’m sorry if that disappoints you. But it is as real as a book can be. And their pain is as real as it can be. You see the characters grow close. You grow close to them as well. And just when you expect it the least, everything shatters. 

I won’t tell you anymore. If you like to get your heart broken into millions of tiny pieces ( I know I do) give it a try! 

Rating: It is My Favourite Book Of The Month. So I guess that says it all. 
Also check out my other blog!! Here’s the link for the post :  http://wp.me/p7af2x-17

Playlist For The Dead

This beautifully heartbreaking book was written by Michelle Falkoff. 
Okay so here’s what you need to keep beside you while reading this book : A box of tissues. 

Pretty mainstream really, you gotta do this for almost all the books I’m gonna review. Tissue companies and book publishers should do a deal or something. Great business. 

So here’s a brief of this book.

Sam goes to his best friend(Hayden’s) house to apologise for the last night. What he finds instead is his best friend. Dead. And a playlist. Throughout the course of the book you ( along with Sam) figure out what caused Hayden to kill himself. There’s a point in the book…where I was kind of scared ( come on I was reading it at 3 am) 

But basically Sam and Hayden are the kind of guys who don’t have too many friends. They have each other. There will also be a point in the book ( that’s if you think anything like me) when you feel feel really really sad for Sam. Coz eventually he’s the one still here, you know. And it must have been incredibly sad for Hayden. But, grief is for the living.

Also I shouldn’t tell you this but, Damn in Astrid! We all trusted you! #shebrokehisheart#thenshebrokeours

If you wanna know what that means…Go check it outtt! ! 

Rating: Would totally stay up till 3 am reading it. 

Reviewing Life

Okayyy Guyssss! Thinking of doing something new…

Okay so it seems I’ve been reading a little bit too much lately..and at least something good should come out of it right? So I’m going to start reviewing things! 

It’ll be all sorts of stuff really….Books….Movies…TV shows….Songs….And for my fellow Indians…even restaurants and colleges..

Don’t worry😉 I’ll make sure to make it interesting! So yayyy! I’m gonna be starting like today!  So tune it to Radio 160.7 ( that’s my bikes number yo😂) 


Sleep Diaries

It’s quite a wonder I’ve not written about sleep before. Sleep is, has always been and will always be my favourite thing to do. I can sleep( and do sleep ) at any given time of the day. My family just gets really annoyed when I do so. They just like manage to be so loud and irritating. I mean someone is trying to sleep out here. Can you just? Like please. Shut up. 

And then they say I’m too ” arrogant” or something. But it’s just really simple. What reaction do you expect from someone who only wants to sleep. But that’s just a whole different topic.

Coming back to sleep. It’s just like the most amazing concept ever. You get into bed and settle down to have the best time of your life. Which….is basically a coma? I don’t know I’ve never gotten a hang of this concept.  I mean it’s a pretty everyday concept. You wake up. You spend your day on stuff that doesn’t matter. You sleep. Then you wake up. But it’s always just really confused me. Like I’ve tried remembering the exact moment I fell asleep. I never can. One second I’m trying to sleep. The other I’m waking up to my alarm. 

John Green once wrote,  ” I fell in love the way you fall asleep, slowly, then all at once” 

And that got me thinking( not about love, about sleep.)Like Wow John Green. I really admire and applaud to you. That’s a fantastic way to put it.( On after side note, isn’t it just really amazing when you are reading something..and there it is..that one feeling you could never put into words, or that one thing which hadn’t even occurred to you. Like woah! You’ll are an inspiration) 

Then I came across, Inside Out. That magnificent, magnificent movie. It baffles me how creative these people are. And so  after watching it, I decided whatever sleep is. It comes when your ” train of thought”( they showed an actual train. Just wow.) is retiring for the night. And that’s the second you sleep. The second your train stops. 

And everytime I’ve tried thinking about this at night, I’ve stayed awake till 4 in the morning. I come to a conclusion. Our  brain , is just so mindblowing ( see what I did there )  I’m always doing to be surprised by its ways.

But whatever sleep is, it it’s amazing and also loads of advantages. Currently it’s saving a lot of my pocket money.

So,  All this sleep talk is getting me sleepy.I think I’m going to sleep. You should too. God knows,  we need as much as we can get. 




It is funny isn’t it. Before you know a person. A photo is just a photo. It is just something you scroll by on some social networking site. Then when you meet that person or become friends with that person,  you see that photo in a different way. And then you get to know the person. And with every little thing you get to know about them, you percieve the photo in a different way. Like you no longer see it as a photo. Now you see the imperfections and the flaws. You see the scar below their eye and remember them telling you, so enthusiastically, the tale of their dog jumping at them exitedly the first day they got him home. You see their photo smile and remember their actual smile. The smile you’d do anything to keep on their face. You see them more than just the total of their parts. There is something more now. Just a bit more. Then somehow, someday,  you may not be that close to them anymore. And you lose this,  beautiful,  beautiful feeling,  of knowing them. You still see the same things,  but you also see it fading. You see them fading. And now, again,  it is just a photo. You start forgetting the way they raise their eyebrows and the way their mouth curls as they laugh. And that is so sad a thing, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I think that is what hurts me the most , when I lose contact with a person. Seeing their photo, and seeing just an empty face. Just another person,  with their own life. Not the person who’s life intersected yours.

But then again,  I guess,  not everyone thinks so much about a single photograph. Maybe,  it is just me,  overthinking